Weight loss 2013

I had stop working out since 2010 because I was so depressed but I didn't stop completely. I work out from time to time. All the sudden, I kept gaining couple of pound which I didn't care.  I let my depressing get the best of me. I stopped at everything I was doing at that moment. I let food to be my emotional healing. It wasn't a good last two year for me to go through. It was def. a bad idea for me to stop working out because I gain a couple of pound back then. The pound I weight in the past was 195 and it made a huge impact in my life. I told myself that I am not going to be OBESE. After I got a job, I had to do something about it.  I joined Deaf bigger loser at my school. I was strictly on diet and execrise. I lost 8 lbs and I stopped awhile after that and I gained back. Only two pounds. I am back at it. I have been working out since May 2013. I am losing weight very slowly but I am losing a lot of inches swifty. It was very hard progressing for me to go through. No one said losing weight is easily. I am very proudly to see the progressing that I am making this month. I have a lot compliment from my families, friends, and coworker. They noticed I lost a lot of weight. I felt so good to see the progressing that I am going through. I am not giving up.

This picture below was taken in the year of 2010. You really can see the different. If I continued what I was doing, I would probably be healthy and fit weight 145 lbs. I am reaching my goals at the end of the year. My goal is to lose 25 to 35 pounds. I will keep you update about my weight loss.

Health Care: Prenatal Pills

All of my friends irks the hell out of me when I say something about prenatal pills. My friends asked me, are you expecting or on your way to be pregnant? I laughed my ass of them stupid ignorant people. lol. In my personal opinion, I think there is nothing wrong of taking them. 


All of the sudden, I am very much focus on my nail and taking care of it. My nail have been growing just beautiful since I have taking prenatal vitamins pill for a months and half. I started to noticed my nail grow at least three week. Of course, you just can't expect to grow overnight. All you gotta do is give it time to grow. I was doing something around the house, my nails caught my mother's attention. She asked me how did I get my nail grow like that? I told her I was taking prenatal pills. She had this weird look hawking at me like an owl and asking me why I am taking this pill and is it for pregnant woman? Hold up, let me explain, Prenatal pills does not always mean for pregnant woman only can take it. I  thought the same thing and someone advice me to take it. so I did. Anyone can take prenatal pills.  My nervous always had me biting my nails off and it is always in the way. I bite when I am extremely nervous. So few months later, I have learn how to stop biting and learn how to control my anxiety. Without the pills, I don't have problem of growing my nail out but it seems to break off easily.

The pills are very harmful and it won't affect you in any way beside the pills giving you more vitamins you need. I use the spring valley brand. So it is no harm in taking prenatal vitamin pills as your daily dose even you are not pregnant, trying to get pregnant. 




What is the benefits of taking prenatal pills? 

• It helps your hair and nails grow appears healthier and stronger
• it helps your nails faster
• give your enough vitamins 
• It helps you to prepare for the baby

I have not noticed my hair growing yet but I have not really pay attention on my hair. My nails really caught up my attention. I am sad that my nail just broke couple day ago.. I am not even worry about that because it will grow back fast. lol. 

Can nail color determine the color related to health diseases?

I never thought this will affect me as well when I red this post. I won't let it get to me along I questionnaire my doctor on my next checkup. So I am a little concern about my health situation. I am very much healthy but in the near future? This really scared me a bit when my friend send me a picture. I hardly take care of my hair because I always in my hair, clean doing house chores, and everything. My nail grows pretty good but the color nail bother me. I have this half pink and half white  color related to kidney problem. I  kept looking at my nail very hard and it bother me so much. I thought it look pink and white are healthy. I think I need to check up with my doctor to ask question about my nail. 

My father died without a kidney and my uncle is living without a kidney and he is on machine.  Maybe I should take my health more seriously. I do not want to be one of them. I have several  UTI and bladder infection before. I went to the doctor immediately for medical treatment. Should I worry about this? Is it possible nail color determines  health disease? This is my hand. 

My tooth extraction is gone.

This morning, my dentist numb my lower gum and took one of my tooth out. I am so glad it is gone. It had been year of trying to make appointment for tooth extraction.  Tooth, you have worked on my last nerve to the end and u can leave my tongue alone. lol.. I don’t have to daydream by touching you. lol. My gum is a mess at this moment but it will heal up very nicely. I was bleeding nonstop and have this big socket in my jaw. It was not a pretty picture. 

My Next Beauty Kit: 120 Color Palette 4th

I have been wanting trying this new 120 Color Palette 4th eye shadow ever since I had my eyes on it. I bought cheap eye shadow that won't stay for longer period of time. I hope this product will do. When the time is right, I will most definitely order it online. or I might as well order it from ebay because it is more cheaper. I am waiting for the big holiday sale coming up. I am not a huge fan of eye shadow but I eye shadow when I go on a special occasion or trying to look good. I just love going out looking like a doll. Just not too much. All I need dark eye shadow fit my appearance very well. I can't do bright color very well because I do not like the look of it.

Another thing that I like is fake eyelashes. I usually don't wear fake eyelashes but I am willing to trying it. I think I will like it on the first attempt but I will not use it very often. It will be like to look pretty. lol

Dental Care: bad tooth

My baby tooth is kinda sad at this moment

I really have to take this tooth seriously and have it pulled out before it is too late. I already mention it somewhere in my blog that I had a big cracked in the back of my lower teeth.  Last night, my mother put too much pain in my heart that I couldn't barely take. It was the worst feeling that I ever had. It hit me so hard and I got to do something about it. My mom told that most people died for tooth infection. That had me worrying for the worst. I had to make dentist appointment to rid of this tooth before the infection come. My gum nor tooth doesn't hurt but it bother me a lot. I have been using my tongue or toothpick to get the food out and it bleed when I do that. If I don't make a call, I will be worrying a lot. So I made a few calls and dentist is very pricey as hell and it is sure not in my budget. My medicaid won't cover half of it. It is suck that I have to pay out of my pocket. Dentists won't take any payment on it so it had to be paid upfront. This is giving me a headache so i have not given up yet. I finally found one that is not much. I don't care of being broke. Shit, my health is the most important to me. I am so nervous about this appointment on Monday morning. All I need a prayer to get through. I never thought I will be that scared to go to dentist. 

I know my black butt ain't going to look like that in that picture. I gotta have my makeup on, and no lip gloss. lol. just kidding. I know my jaw is going to be swallow. I never have the time to go to dentist to get my teeth check. Shame on me. Now it is the time to get it done. NO MORE waiting time. Finally I am going to get my tooth pulled out Monday morning so I can take better care next time. I do not want to feel any pain when the doctor have to drill to get the tooth out. I rather my dentist put me on sleeping gas. Ugh. This is what I am afraid the most. All I need a tooth to make me happy again. I just pray my dentist doesn't give me any more bad new. 

Sex Cleanse

I have been doing some serious thinking for the past few weeks but this might sound funny. In my mind, I took a good laugh but I can do it. I am considering to be on sex cleanse for two years.  I bet that term had been running through  your head," what the hell is sex cleanse."! lol. It is not a word but I just thought of it. For my definition of sex cleanse mean to stop having sex for a while after extremely great sex. I am going for two years. haha.  All I get from my friends is giggle, chuckle, & laugh. They don't believe that I can make it for two years.If I could wait for six month or more, I could go for years or more. All I need is motivation to get this going. I know for one thing that my sex high drive will most definitely will murder my ass.

To be perfectly honest, I LOVE SEX. Don't get me wrong.I enjoyed having all the great sex from my baby and learning all the position. I really do. He is a amazin & a beast. Again, I love sex. I just can't even lie about that. It is what I want to do. If my boo asked me to have sex with him, I will have to reject that cutiebear for two years. At first, I thought of man cleanse, I was thinking that is not for me because I do not have a problem of dating every guy I see. I am with the dude I am in love with but we just live too far away. Sex cleanse is good enough for me. I had been having sex with the same dude for three years for the 22 times. look who counting. lol. Does it sound like I need sex cleanse? lol. I know I am going to miss that beast. To be perfectly honest, no one can beat him fucking me REAL GOOD. He knows how 2 beat this pussy real GOOD. He drove me crazy wen he does that.He made me wanting more. I really don't want that beast to leave. When I see him, he make me so weak in bed.

He loves to scroll my panties down and feeling all up in my thigh and leg as I can reminisce everything. It is taking me back at that moment. The memories will always take me back where we had sex. I am going to miss smelling his cum in my panties. it crazy me insane. I'm a sex manic when it come to that. Damn, I made a committed to stop having sex and I am going to miss all of it. I might be silly  but I am in my moment to say good bye to sex. lol.  This is going to be a big challenge for me. I am going make it through with God's help. So wish me good luck...