My vision condition

I am very disappoint in myself and I could not believe it. It is partially my fault and I should have wear glasses long time ago but I chose not to wear glasses. If I listen to my doctor more, my vision will get much better. All through my life, I hate wearing glasses and it as not my thing. Back in the day, I think all of those glasses were ugly and i couldn't afford to buy those expensive brand name. Now I have a chance a purchase those brand name that I really want. I took eye exam couple a day ago and I was in so shock that my doctor told me that I have bad vision. I almost cried from there but I try my best to hold inside until I arrive home. I have this thing called Astigmatism which mean a vision condition that causes blurred vision due either to the irregular shape of the cornea, the clear front cover of the eye, or sometimes the curvature of the lens inside the eye. To be honest, I can't see far away. It had been like that since I was in high school. I gotta accept the fact that I have to wear glasses even though I hate it very much. either wear it or go blind. I finally got this brand name BABY PHAT which cost too much. My medicaid won't pay for it. yea, I pay it with my own money. UGH.. I hope I am going to take good care of this glasses so i won't have to pay it from my pocket for the next five years & promises myself that I will continue to wear glasses.