Pregnancy: Age is just a number, isn't it?

Why is that people is being so judgment these days? Who gave you the right to criticize older mother who try to have babies? It is not your place to make a quick to judge on someone else. Leave that to GOD. He have the most power to do that. And it is not your life so worry about your life. I guess it is human's nature to judge other people but not in my nature. It's all  about what you want in life & what you can afford. I don't think anyone but God has any right to say older woman cannot or can have babies. If God chose you to have this baby at this age, so be it and GO FOR IT. Don't let anyone tell you different. Some people aren't ready to have baby until in their 30s or 40s and it is really none of their or my business. "My quote: Don't judge other so they won't judge you."  I know that people around you and their opinion can affect your life but you are giving your two cents is so damn judgment. All you can do is just be there to support her no matter what. However, Don't let that get to you. If you want to have babies at that age, GO FOR IT. What is wrong of having babies in their early & late 40's?  We all know all the risk of having babies at that age but age shouldn't matter. I am definitely not encourage all women to get pregnancy at 50 nor 60. Just saying.

Don't forget that Celebrities in their 40's had their babies and gave healthy babies but some may have issue. Celebrities can afford to have infertility, donor eggs or whatever that may be.  These days, there are more women becoming pregnant in their 40's  and beyond. So many people wonder, how old is too old to have a baby? There is no perfect simple answer for that. I guess age is just a number to have babies. No one is perfect but GOD.

I really didn't feel ready to have children when I was in my 20's. I was so much into school work, having so much fun, living my life to the fullest and additionally, there was no man in my life at that time. All of my good friend had their babies in their 20's and waiting for me to have my own. I have received a couple of statement that they wish they could have waited because they was so jealousy that I was having so much fun in my 20's. There is no reason to be jealousy. I think having children is more fun and precious. I guess I am trying to do better than my mother. My mother had my sisters when she was 15,years old, she had me when she was 20 and 25 years old. I have seen her struggle and struggle to raised all three of us without our father in our life. I have no problem of being a mother at older age. I think it is the right time for me to start my own life at this moment because I am so ready to settle my life with someone. I used to dream of having my own kids when I was 25 years old but that dream of mine FAILED. I guess I am not going to dream so much to make it happen. I am in love with this dude I am with. We are working on having babies when the time is right. I do not regret of waiting to have baby in my 30's. If I can't baby now,  I will adopt one but continue to try to have baby.

There is other thing that made me realize something very important in my life. I wouldn't let it bother me so much. The major concern is that my babies might not have a chance to see their grandma. Why is the rush to get pregnant now and what if getting pregnancy FAILED? Well, People made a choice to have that babies at that age. . See, I don't have a Grandma nor great grandma cuz they died when I am very young. Should I rush to get pregnant now? The answer is no but I know my mother might not live long enough. God forgive me for saying that. I know I can't be mad at God for taking my family away. God can't keep everybody so someone gotta go. So getting pregnant at that age have a lot to think about. It will be hard on me n my future children if she ain't here but I am going try the best to make it through. . God will be w me all the WAY. I pray that I will get to live longer to see my grandbaby.. 5 or more kids for me. As long I make scrapbook of my whole families which I need to do it NOW.

My Special K Challenge of 2011

 I really don't eat at all. I eat when I am very hungry and tend don't gain any weight at all from time to time. I hate eating breakfast which it is very important meal of the day. I need to start to eating breakfast to make it my habit. My mama put me on Special K diet plan which I don't want to be on it but it is worth a try to lose couple of pounds in two weeks. I am going to keep this diet plan plain and simple. Last week, my plan failed because I didn't work out a lot along with the diet plan. This week, I will do so much better and I am very determined to do much better on week 2. But at the same time, I will try not to let this weather stop me from exercising and do indoor aerobic if it too cold. In some way, I was very excited to get my week started but week one made me hungry and I feel my stomach empty. I drink Special K protein to keep me from being hungry. As this moment, I weight 186  and I am looking forward to lose 35 lbs end of the year. I hope I can accomplish my goal this year.

Special K is one of the healthier cereals and an excellent choice as a breakfast meal.There is no harm of try to lose weight fast. Just follow Special K routine or create your own routine, & everything will be fine. I know eating the same cereal day by bay can be extremely boring. Just hang in there and lost the pound you have always wanted.  If anyone can lose 6lbs in two weeks, you can, too. All you gotta do is exercise, eat well, and lose the pounds, then YOU ARE GOOD. Get rid of junk food. Eat fruit & Veggie, Or Yogurt, eat Special K snack bar instead of junk food. Your good healthy meal can be Campbell soup. It is plain and simple.

I can't say that "Special" K diet is truly amazing to lose because I have not lost the weight yet. . I am just hoping to lose 5 lbs this week. Wish me good luck and I really need it. I will keep you update in week 3. 

I am not doing this as a diet crash and I am not planning to gain it all back once I stop. Unless I am eating a lot and consume 1500 calories a day, I am good. Eating once a day just extremely insane. I can't do that. So it’s a long term commitment to eating more healthy. Just don't give up..

Meal 1

Start your day with:

Any Special K^® Cereal, 2/3 cup skim milk and your choice of fruit, or have a Protein Shake or Protein Meal Bar. When selecting Special K™ Low Fat Granola Cereal, choose either 2/3 cup of skim milk or fruit.

Meal 2

Replace a second meal with one of these yummy options:

Serving of cereal Protein Meal Bar

Protein Shake

Meal 3

Eat your third meal as you normally do.

Remember, you can make this meal either the first, second or last meal of the day. Look in the Tips and Tools section on SpecialK.com for third meal ideas.

Snacks

Enjoy two great-tasting Special K™ snacks every day (and at any time)!

Protein Snack Bars Cereal Fruit Crisps

Crackers or Cracker Chips Protein Water Mixes

Enjoy fruits & veggies as additional snacks.

Drink beverages as you normally do.

* Consult your physician before starting any diet or exercise program.

Vision Care

 

I really need to started to using glasses more often before my vision start to go down.You know what, I HATE wearing glasses because glasses made me feel like so geeky and it is so unattractive.  I don't have problem with my vision at all but I just can't see far. Sometimes, I have to tweek my eyes just to see enough which I hate doing that. I really need to take serious action about my vision care before blindness hit me. I don't know what would I do if I become blind all the sudden. It is going to be a very difficult life to face. Lucky, I know sign language that will help me get through life.

I hate going to the doctor to have my eye examined when they questionnaires my eyes ability. Ugh. When I do go to the eye doctor, it better not receive any bad new as I pray. 

I stopped wearing glasses because one of the La girl was making fun of my glasses. I shouldn't matter what other people's opinion but it did. I felt this huge embarrass when she was about to tell her friends about how I look. I act like nothing had happen. So I need to ask my doctor question and how bad my eyes are. I want one of those baby phat glasses but It cost too high. I just wondering if it look good on me. I want a glasses that will look good on me but not grandma glasses or a glasses that will easily to make fun of. I need a glasses that will match my appearance.

My hyperpigmentation gotta go....

Palmer's Skin Success: Clears Skin And Stops Acne Marks Eventone Acne Rescue Kit

 

Since I was growing up, I always have beautiful and amazing skin but dark spots on the skin, also called hyperpigmentation is always in the way especially on the sideburns and on my nose.  I get a lot of compliment for folks that I have beautiful skin. I guess I take it after my grandma. She had the most amazing beautiful skin and I am proud to have that. RIP Elizabeth Brown. Back to the point, I was like, how can I have beautiful  skin when hyperpigmentation is in the way? How can u say that I have amazing skin? I don't get that part. Well, my hyperpigmentation on my face is not that bad but still. I always drink gallon of water, my dark spot seems to be fading away beautiful and after using Noxzema on my face which I love very much seem to work very well. If I don't take care of my skin very well, or stop drinking water, or less than 40 oz of water, my face will start to break out crazy. I hate when it does that to my skin. I was so unhappy about the way I look and my friend always telling me stop picking on your sore and LEAVE IT ALONE. I can't help the way I put my hand on my face when it need to be left alone.  It really irritation me so bad. I try my very best to keep my skin look beautiful. So I was so eager to try this Palmer's Skin Success Eventone Acne. You can buy this product at Walmart store for just $20.00 if the store in your area have this product. So anyway, Back in the day, I used to buy Fade cream, fade milk lotion and complexion soap work wonderful on my skin but part of skin started to fade a little lighter. I would like to show two picture from the past to now. 

2006

I love my beautiful skin. there are less dark spot on my skin. This picture was taken back in 2006.

2010

There is a lot of hyperpigmentation on my chin, cheek, forehead, sideburns, and also my neck.

So I am waiting my skin to GLOW gain after six week using this product. Will I stop using it? just in case if my skin break out again. Six weeks seems to be pretty long but focus on my skin will keep me very busy. All I want to do is get rid of the hyperpigmentation on my skin. As this moment, I am start to drink a lot of water if I want beautiful skin and working on diminishing the old dark spot. I want to look BEAUTIFUL AGAIN. I love myself more than ever but my beauty is my major concern. 

I don't want my beauty to scare anybody away or having them scaring at me like crazy. My friend told me that, what is happen to my face and I used to have amazing skin? Men do not like it when she have dark spot all over her face? At that moment, I felt so deeply hurt and I was about to cry. I can't help the way I look. 

Wish me Good Luck... I will keep you update in two weeks.

 Beauty Quotes saying:

• "Beauty... when you look into a woman's eyes and see what is in her heart, not just her look."  ~Nate Dircks 

• "A woman who cannot be ugly is not beautiful."  ~Karl Kraus

• "Some people, no matter how old they get, never lose their beauty - they merely move it from their faces into their hearts."  ~Martin Buxbaum

• "Beauty is not in the face; beauty is a light in the heart."  ~Kahlil Gibran

• "I'm tired of all this nonsense about beauty being only skin-deep.  That's deep enough.  What do you want - an adorable pancreas?"  ~Jean Kerr, The Snake Has All the Line

• "It matters more what's in a woman's face than what's on it."- Claudette Colbert

I let da cold weather STOP me. That is a NO-NO

 

I don't even know why I stopped working out back in November when I was out of town. I shouldn't let that stop me. I guess I was not comfortable to start my little routine when I was staying in Va for almost a month.I did try to go to the gym to work out with my good friend but it cost $5.00 per day to use the gym & $ 20.00 for a year. I should have paid the $20.00 but I didn't. I came back home to MS and so excited to continue my work out mission but the weather was ridiculous. I did my 5 miles in the cold breeze air and I end up getting sick for four weeks. I just stop working out because the weather is wasting my time. I SHOULDN'T let the weather STOP me. I will be the one crazy chick walking on the field. lolz.  I could have join Anytime Fitness but I am not on budget to afford it. I try to go to church to use their gym but I gotta take weight lifting class orientation in order to use their equipment. I got to find out when the next class will be so I can roll up my sleeves and get this workout done. I would to tone up my body just a little bit, I have two exercises video such as Hip Hop Abs & Taebo but I seem so so lazy to do it. What I need is something that will motivated me to do it. I used to workout as a group that keep me motivated but workout alone, I feel so alone and lazy. I find them all boring if you keep the same routine until next week change, routine changes with an instructors telling YOU CAN DO IT Will that keep me motivated? it is not enough. I'd much rather be outside...

My weight loss journey of 2010

I have start my weight journey on the six of June 2010. I have been doing good so far. I noticed myself that I am very motivated in workout. All the sudden, I became a workout freak. i just can't stop working out. If i missed it, i be mad at hell. lolz. i am crazy, YOU CAN SAY THAT. LOL..... I don't let the number bother me because later in the future, it will go down. October 30,2010 is the goal that will see amazing result in my eyez. . I will post my picture from 2009 to now. i was a lil smaller back in oct 2009 after my father passed away, i started  to lose a lot adn gain a lot. so i am getting my shape back & avoiding health problem later future. SO WISH SEXI SHEA BEAR GOOD LUCK...the purpose of this journey is for me to tone up.. I could lose weight at the same time. Losing weight and toning up is completely different so don't confuse the both. people always think it is the same but it is not..

I know i did too much miles in a week. lolz. YOU CAN SAY I AM CRAZY... LOLZ.

MY 21 weeks workout daily:

MY WEIGHT IN ON JUNE 6TH IS 192

WEEK 1- JUNE 6-12TH:  112  LAPS; 28 MILES

WEEK 2- JUNE 13-19TH:  100   LAPS; 25 MILES

WEEK 3 - JUNE 20-26TH:  82  LAPS; 20.5 MILES

WEEK 4 - JUNE 27- JULY 3RD:  98  LAPS; 24.5

WEEK 5 - JULY 4-10TH:  80  LAPS; 20 MILES

WEEK 6 - JULY 11TH-17:  80  LAPS; 20 MILES

WEEK 7 - JULY 18-24TH:  67  LAPS; 16.75 MILES

WEEK 8-JULY 25-31ST:  80 LAPS; 20 MILES

WEEK  9 AUG. 1-7TH: 96 LAPS;  24 MILES

August 11th - weighi in 187

WEEK 10- AUG.  8-14TH:  56 LAPS; 14 MILES- DUES TO RAINY DAYS

WEEK 11 - AUG 15-21ST:8  88 LAPS; 22 MILES

WEEK 12 -AUG. 22-28TH: 32 LAPS; 8 MILES DUES TO CRAMPS.

WEEK 13- AUG. 29-SEPT. 4TH: 100 Laps; 25 miles

WEEK 14 - SEPT. 5- 11ST: 68 laps; 17 miles

WEEK 15 - SEPT. 12-18TH: 84 Laps; 21 miles

WEEK 16 - SEPT. 19-25TH: 84 Laps; 21 miles

WEEK 17 - SEPT. 26-OCT. 2ND: 100 laps ; 25 miles

WEEK 18 - OCT 3-9TH: 96 laps; 24 miles

WEEK 19 - OCT 10-16TH: 20 laps - 5miles. ( one week break felt great and i sure do need it) lol

WEEK 20 - OCT 17 -23RD: 72 laps -18 miles

WEEK 21 - OCT 24 - 30TH; 40 laps -10 miles

Weight in & body measurement:Sadly, I didn't get to do that..

Aug 2010: AS THIS MOMENT, MY CLOTHES FEEL A LITTLE LOOSE. I AM SO HAPPY. LET MY JOURNEY TO BE CONTINUE. I AM LOOKING FORWARD TO REACH MY GOAL. I AM SO GLAD I AM DOING SOMETHING ABOUT IT. GOTTA FIT IN MY SKINNY JEANS. LOLZ

Weight loss problem

All through my life, I have been a thick girl since my childhood. I have been struggle to lose weight for year. It is not like I am a big girl..I just have large frame which it can't be rid of. The picture above, I weight around 160 dues to stomach virus  and working at the chicken plantation at different time which I lost weight dramatically. I feel so small when I was weighting 160 when I was chilling with my girlfriends at the club. The worst comment I get from my friends are,"who is that girl and I didn't even recognize you? what happen to you and your ass?" oh lord. I was like, where is the rest of me goes? I miss being a thick at that time. lolz.  If I weight 140,  I will be very skinny. I don't want to be THAT skinny but I just want to be healthy and fit. I have been weighting 180 ever since I graduated from high school and still weighting it now but I sometimes lose weight from time to time, tho. Once I lose 20, or 40lb, I gained it all right back. ugh. Strange is that if I weight 180, i won't gain anymore weight.  And I also want to be able to fit any of those sexy jean. At this moment, I am a size 15 but I WOULD love to fit in size of 11/12. I think it is just a number unless you don't go over. 

I love to fit in those colorful skinny jeans.

For the past summer, I never ever thought in my mind that I will go over 190. It totally shocked my eyes when I went to the doctor to check on my weight. I do not have any health problem at all. I do not have any children either but I have been told many time that I have a body like a mother. I always have this chubby stomach which I dislike very much. I am very surprise that I have flat stomach which showing on the picture above. I am wondering where did I get this stomach from, I don't even drink alcohol to get a bellies. I guess I got it from my father.  For my age, I am not suppose to weight 190 lbs and I am only 30 years old. My mama told me that I am not big but just have big bones. The number I weight that time is extremely putting stress on me. Many people shocked that weight 192 because I don't even look that that big. "Man be like, why are u trying to lose weight, u are not big and u are fine as hell, leave the weight alone."  They like what they see but i do not like what i see. I feel big and fat. Maybe I need to tone up a little bit. What do you think?

I HATE eating breakfast cuz I am not a morning person. I barely eat and I don't feel hungry in the morning. I started to get back on walking and I will try to eat right. It seem so hard to do it. .

"Remember that eating a healthy breakfast is the best way to start off your day, and be good to yourself by eating a healthy breakfast. Notice how much better you feel through the morning and the rest of the day when you don't skip breakfast."- I will keep that in mind. 

 

I WOULD LOVE TO BE SERENA WILLIAMS. She is a perfectly of example of being big boned and thick.. She is my favorite athletic even though I don't know how to play tennis. I was told that I look like her which I don't see myself in her. Maybe far distance, u might can see as I guess.